A lot to think about

Wow ok so there seems to be a lot going on in my life its crazy! There's a lot in my life i want to change. A lot of issues I have to think "Sierra, want do you believe about this or that?" I want to know what I believe not what others have told me to believe! So yeah pray that I finish finding out who is Sierra Sentel!

Relaxing+Almost Heart attack+Wow=ok day

So today was pretty relaxing I can't complain. I slept in haha not really I didn't have class so why get up... I did my midterm online. Made an A. So that's good. Then I packed up to head to Ozark. I packed my guitars first because i knew i couldn't forget those. That would be bad haha! I got the neighbors dog to come see me and it Made my day! My goal was to get this Dog to play with me and I succeeded this was the 2nd time he came to me. ok so i watched some of a movie with some of the girls while i wasted time. Put it this way i was enjoying the relaxing day. As i went to leave the dorm to head to Ozark i grab the trash from my room and day room and my wireless pick up for my guitar. well i laid the guitar pick up on my truck area of my car and i was going to take the trash then get it. well long story short i leave the dorm and took highway 2 to 231 (60 miles an hour lol). Totally forgot about my guitar thing :( i get to 231 i turned on to it and when the speed limit changes to 65 i notice something go flying off my car. I was speechless i almost started crying lol. i turned around at the next median and flew back to the spot. pulled over ran over to it (toms need washed for sure now) I lost the papers that was in the box but the box was sitting on the side of the road all the smaller pieces where in the box still the only thing that flew out was the transmitter (biggest piece) i was so scared I text two friends and told them to pray i was so scared. I finally called momma because i was about to break. and she was getting off so i picked her up at her work and drove her to her car and talked to her a little and cried lol. i called her and talked to her the rest of the way to church and she asked me if i was still hanging out with my friends lol ( I thought this was funny) she said i seemed depressed. i told her i was hanging out with my friends and i was ok just stressed. She said ok i know how you are and you have you own room now so just making sure your not staying to yourself. She has a point i have stayed in my room a lot but that just because there isn't nothing really to do in Graceville and living off campus technically you don't really see anyone lol. so yeah. i get to church 30 mins late for practice but it was ok. i told David what had happen so we stopped and we plugged it all in and All thanks to God it was fine. The transmitter was sitting on the side of the road but it almost looked as though God placed it down on the ground there weren't really any scratches on the bottom no cracks or anything. it was just wet from the grass. i think the box it was is got most of the blow. But anyway we had our first WOW (Worship on Wednesday). We didn't have a huge turn out but hey its ok we had some of our core youth and college so it was good. Well i'm going to head to bed i will talk to y'all later.
btw i talk to mom about what my advisor said we are going to try to file for pell grant on me so pray it works and pray i can move off otherwise it wont work. Night love love!

Need Prayer!

I need some prayer I’m trying to be strong but some reason it’s really hard. I have so much on my plate.
I have been praying, even before I found out about camp, that God would show me school wise what to do. Well because I'm not working at camp i think I might try to take classes at Wallace. I have 9 credit hour I can get there; so hey why not. On another note... Angela is moving out into a house. She’s renting from my Grandfather and wants me to move in with her. On the surface that sounds like a great plan right. The more I think about it I don’t want too. Why? Well if I move back home to Ozark that means I will most likely not come back cause I will get a job etc... I’m trying to move off campus still. If I can get a house off campus that would help a lot. This fall I have NO pell grant and NO scholarships as of right now. I signed up with one with dads work and haven’t heard anything yet. I don’t think I can get pell grant and Dad when he did my taxes (which I didn’t even have to do) he made it where momma cant claim me meaning I cant get pell grant unless I file myself and not sure if I can. So that’s two.

I went to talk to my advisor today about how much longer I have till I can graduate. Well I have 50 hours left here for Christian Education degree. This isn’t including minor in music. If I take the 9hrs at Wallace that will be 41 hours left here. Well if I take 12 hours at one time (just saying 12 that’s a full ride, can take more) that’s about 3 in a half semesters left. That doesn’t sound half bad but I have no money lol. So three…

And last for now I found out I have an internship I have to do also and I could of use this summer at camp as that so yeah that was a bummer.

Just pray that everything falls into place I have in mind what I would like but not sure. I’m trying to lean on God fully right now Just pray for direction and school this semester. I have a lot to do. Also we start leading music at church tomorrow night for the youth its called WOW at Logan Road(Worship on Wednesday).

Thanks Love you guys!

Never Ending Battle Called Life!

So I'm sitting here at 12:14am wishing I could just go to bed but I can't. I have a lot on my mind.....The past I would say semester has been a tough one. I feel like I'm in a never ending battle. If its not one thing it’s another. I'm not sure how to handle all of it. The beginning of this semester I realized I've been running from music! So then finally I surrendered that to God and now look I'm in a praise band at church with my sister and David. It honestly happened over night one weekend and it exploded. Now we lead every Sunday night for church and we are starting (hopefully) next week leading music for the youth on Wednesday nights. I really enjoy it! Sometimes it’s hard because of different things but God knows those reasons! So that's the first bump or whatever you want to call it... Then the second, I have a friend who will remain nameless, but for the sake of it we will call him Jim Bob. Well Jim Bob and I dated once he’s a really good guy but we are two different so it wouldn't work. Long story short I'm a Christian and he's not so I basically had to end the friendship because he wanted more and I didn't. That was really hard for me to do but no one said it would be easy. Third, I've been struggling with why I’m still at BCF mainly because I'm worried about how I’m going to finish school. Why you may ask well one money wise, two family, and three spiritual warfare, etc........... I know, I know, God will provide trust me I know and he has so far. I just hate getting student loans out. I’m 22 years old and when I graduate I’m going to be in debt already! I’ve been trying to move off campus that would help yes. But this fall semester I have no clue how I’m going to pay I have NOTHING! Fourthly I found out last night I got a letter in the mail from Camp saying they would not be offering me a job this summer. Honestly when I got it I was in complete and total shock. I had to read it twice to believe it. But yep that’s what it said. I didn’t tell many people because honestly I didn’t want anyone to make a big deal about it. So I was in the cafeteria so I told my friend KP I was going to get my food to go (never did eat it haha). So I came back to my room. When I got to my car I lost it. I finally was able to cry (thanks God in a way I hate the circumstances though). I’m so confused. I have no clue why so it hurts bad I won’t lie. Some people tell me ask why. But what’s done is done there nothing I can do. A lot of people are trying to get me to talk but of course I won’t. I’m writing on here but no one reads this anyways so I’m getting it off my chest this way lol. I know I’ve stayed in my room a lot this semester and kept to myself but that because one I’ve been sick half the time (still am) and I cant stand immature people so I like being by myself for now no offense. I’m really trying to be positive and think of it this way; God has a plan and it must be a pretty good one but I just don’t see it right now. It’s crazy my friend Lydia just found out she’s not going to China this summer well now I know what it feels like. I need to take my own advice but honestly I didn’t know what to say to her lol…

I know God never puts us in situations that he hasn’t yet prepared us for but I really pray this will all soon be over because to be honest with you I’m not sure how much more I can handle. I’m broken and crying out that God would comfort me and I know he has to be in a way because I know he’s here with me. Just pray for me and direction for my life because now it’s all up in the air. I’m tired of not knowing what’s going on. I use to feel as though God was testing me to teach me to lean on him but I’ve been trying to do that and still am so now I’m not to sure what he’s trying to get me to learn! So yeah I’ve been wanting to update and now I have so I’m going to head to bed now. Don’t feel sorry or anything for me because God does have a plan this is just me clearing some stuff off of my chest. Has it worked kind of but time will heal all wounds.

Until next time lean on him cause He’s all that you have!
Sierra