Trying to find God's will through all the confusion

Hey everyone,
So since I've wrote the last blog about how I was depressed and sponsoring a child I've decided to fast from facebook. Let me just say i thought it would be hard. I went to the extreme I got a friend to change my password and to delete any emails that came about change of password. I put it this way if i spent as much time with God as I do on facebook all my questions would have answers. I have a lot of questions as far as where God wants my life to go, what church to attend, where to get involved, and way more but that's why i have decided to fast a week who knows maybe longer. Not having facebook has been less stressful i might say. Go figure! I think this is a good. Sunday night Becca asked me to go to church with her at Bethel so I did I'm so glad I did. They are doing a Judgment House and needed more helpers so I volunteered. I was going to just help behind the scene and odd jobs. Well needless to say I have a part now :) I'm a nurse. I still don't have answers for stuff but I have felt a peace and I'm not so stress. It wont come over night I know so I will be patient and I will serve while I wait.I will leave with this We can not figure stuff out on our own. We must turn to God. When we try to do it on our own we crash and burn.

An email I recieved its powerful and so true!

Guess our national leaders didn't expect this, hmm? On Thursday, Darrell Scott, the father of Rachel Scott, a victim of the Columbine High School shootings in Littleton , Colorado , was invited to address the House Judiciary Committee's subcommittee. What he said to our national leaders during this special session of Congress was painfully truthful.

They were not prepared for what he was to say, nor was it received well. It needs to be heard by every parent, every teacher, every politician, every sociologist, every psychologist, and every so-called expert! These courageous words spoken by Darrell Scott are powerful, penetrating, and deeply personal. There is no doubt that God sent this man as a voice crying in the wilderness. The following is a portion of the transcript:

" Since the dawn of creation there has been both good & evil in the hearts of men and women.. We all contain the seeds of kindness or the seeds of violence. The death of my wonderful daughter, Rachel Joy Scott, and the deaths of that heroic teacher, and the other eleven children who died must not be in vain. Their blood cries out f or answers.

"The first recorded act of violence was when Cain slew his brother Abel out in the field. The villain was not the club he used... Neither was it the NCA, the National Club Association. The true killer was Cain, and the reason for the murder could only be found in Cain's heart.

"In the days that followed the Columbine tragedy, I was amazed at how quickly fingers began to be pointed at groups such as the NRA. I am not a member of the NRA. I am not a hunter. I do not even own a gun. I am not here to represent or defend the NRA - because I don't believe that they are responsible for my daughter's death. Therefore I do not believe that they need to be defended. If I believed they had anything to do with Rachel's murder I would be their strongest opponent.

I am here today to declare that Columbine was not just a tragedy -- it was a spiritual event that should be forcing us to look at where the real blame lies! Much of the blame lies here in this room. Much of the blame lies behind the pointing fingers of the accusers themselves. I wrote a poem just four nights ago that expresses my feelings best.


Your laws ignore our deepest needs,
Your words are empty air.
You've stripped away our heritage,
You've outlawed simple prayer.
Now gunshots fill our classrooms,
And precious children die.
You seek for answers everywhere,
And ask the question "Why?"
You regulate restrictive laws,
Through legislative creed.
And yet you fail to understand,
That God is what we need!



" Men and women are three-part beings. We all consist of body, mind, and spirit. When we refuse to acknowledge a third part of our make-up, we create a void that allows evil, prejudice, and hatred to rush in and wreak havoc. Spiritual presences were present within our educational
systems for most of our nation's history. Many of our major colleges began as theological seminaries. This is a historical fact. What has happened to us as a nation? We have refused to honor God, and in so doing, we open the doors to hatred and violence. And when something as terrible as Columbine's tragedy occurs -- politicians immediately look for a scapegoat such as the NRA. They immediately seek to pass more restrictive laws that contribute to erode away our personal and private liberties. We do not need more restrictive laws. Eric and Dylan would not have been stopped by metal detectors. No amount of gun laws can stop someone who spends months planning this type of massacre. The real villain lies within our own hearts.



"As my son Craig lay under that table in the school library and saw his two friends murdered before his very eyes, he did not hesitate to pray in school. I defy any law or politician to deny him that right! I challenge every young person in America , and around the world, to realize that on April 20, 1999, at Columbine High School prayer was brought back to our schools. Do not let the many prayers offered by those students be in vain. Dare to move into the new millennium with a sacred disregard for legislation that violates your God-given right to communicate with Him. To those of you who would point your finger at the NRA -- I give to you a sincere challenge. Dare to examine your
own heart before casting the first stone!



My daughter's death will not be in vain! The young people of this country will not allow that to happen!"



Do what the media did not - - let the nation hear this man's speech.. Please send this out to everyone you can. God Bless

God is Awesome!

Ok so I'm new to this so I’m just going to write. So I have to say God is Amazing!

First, I have to start off by saying after I left camp to come back to school I became depressed. I'm not sure if I just missed camp or felt like I didn't have a purpose. I went from having about 8 girls a week to take care of to having no one to take care of and nothing to do. Camp changed me and once I came back to school I didn't know what to do everything was different and people where different too. I kept praying and praying Lord Help me show me your will! I cried out to God I wanted to be happy and couldn't understand why I wasn't. When I came back to school I didn't have a regular quiet time. I won't lie I struggle with that bad but God is helping me though it all. This week I talked to my step mom (Wednesday night) and talked to her about how I wasn't happy and I didn't know why but I wish I did. I text my friend Heather at the same time and she said that I needed to just sit down turn off my phone, computer and anything else I had on and just focus on God. Well I finally did. I turned everything off climb in bed and just prayed crying out to God. I prayed until I fell asleep. The next day I woke up in a Great mood. It was like I started over. I felt like the old Sierra was back the one from camp. Well my school was having a concert Thursday night so I got a ticket on Wednesday after noon so I could go. I won't lie I wasn’t going to go but Angela knew I wanted to go so she gave me money so I could go. I'm so glad I went. So you are probably thinking what this picture in the top right hand corner is. Well I went to the concert. I didn't know why I wanted to go to the concert so bad I hadn't really heard of the group until the concert but I just felt like God wanted me to go. So I did! Well the concert was Amazing! I went with an open mind and in a really good mood. I felt God all day but I really felt him at the concert. Well when I walked in I found a seat and went to see my friends who were working at the World vision table. Well I have always had a heart for those kids. I'm not sure why but I felt my heart tugging really bad. I always do at those tables but I was feeling it bad that night. They had the kids lined up by the month they were born. So of course I went straight to July 14 (go figure). Well I only saw July 15th so I thought I would see if there was a kid from Kenya (My friend Amy just came back from Kenya). Well the last one was from Kenya so I grab it. As soon as I did the tugging got worse. At first I thought God I would love to do this. I would love to sponsor a child. Well then I looked at the birthday. Now I don't believe in coincidences I believe things happen for a reason and God made them happen that way. Well I felt God tugging so I asked Lee to hold it and I went and called my Dad. Dad picked up and I say “Hey Dad I need to talk to you about something serious.” Dad replied “Did you wreck the car?” ok so I thought this was funny because if I wreck I would have been crying but anyways I told him no and it was more serious. Then I proceeded to tell him about the night. I asked him what his thought on me sponsoring a kid through World Vision. Let me just add real quick that I have no job nothing I get a some money from my church but that’s IT! I’m thinking to myself God you want me to sponsor but I have no money. Ok back to the story so Dad is at first telling me that he doesn’t know but by the end he’s like Sierra do it. There was a feel of relief. Then he said something I will never forget he said, “Sierra, do it God has provided for you so far a he will continue to provide for you.” Then it hit me. When I came to BCF my motto was Philippians 4:13 “I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” And Philippians 4:19 “And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” This semester I have been stressed and depressed and it’s all because I forgot that. I have been worrying how I was going to do this. I allowed the devil to bring me down. I forgot that my God, my father was bigger than my problem and that he carries me through life. Through this I think he’s telling me lean on me, trust me, and let me help you. Well I am totally doing that now. I can’t be the beast. I’m human and I need a savior!! And thanks to Jesus I have one! I want to tell everyone who has talked with me these past weeks Lydia, Heather, Courtney, Nikki, Sarah, Jen, Andrea, and anyone else. Thanks for giving me advice and the strength too stay strong. I love you guys!!

Well I’m going to go for now and btw please continue to pray for me. Also pray for the little girl I’m sponsoring her name is Mary Njeri Thank you!!