God is Awesome!

Ok so I'm new to this so I’m just going to write. So I have to say God is Amazing!

First, I have to start off by saying after I left camp to come back to school I became depressed. I'm not sure if I just missed camp or felt like I didn't have a purpose. I went from having about 8 girls a week to take care of to having no one to take care of and nothing to do. Camp changed me and once I came back to school I didn't know what to do everything was different and people where different too. I kept praying and praying Lord Help me show me your will! I cried out to God I wanted to be happy and couldn't understand why I wasn't. When I came back to school I didn't have a regular quiet time. I won't lie I struggle with that bad but God is helping me though it all. This week I talked to my step mom (Wednesday night) and talked to her about how I wasn't happy and I didn't know why but I wish I did. I text my friend Heather at the same time and she said that I needed to just sit down turn off my phone, computer and anything else I had on and just focus on God. Well I finally did. I turned everything off climb in bed and just prayed crying out to God. I prayed until I fell asleep. The next day I woke up in a Great mood. It was like I started over. I felt like the old Sierra was back the one from camp. Well my school was having a concert Thursday night so I got a ticket on Wednesday after noon so I could go. I won't lie I wasn’t going to go but Angela knew I wanted to go so she gave me money so I could go. I'm so glad I went. So you are probably thinking what this picture in the top right hand corner is. Well I went to the concert. I didn't know why I wanted to go to the concert so bad I hadn't really heard of the group until the concert but I just felt like God wanted me to go. So I did! Well the concert was Amazing! I went with an open mind and in a really good mood. I felt God all day but I really felt him at the concert. Well when I walked in I found a seat and went to see my friends who were working at the World vision table. Well I have always had a heart for those kids. I'm not sure why but I felt my heart tugging really bad. I always do at those tables but I was feeling it bad that night. They had the kids lined up by the month they were born. So of course I went straight to July 14 (go figure). Well I only saw July 15th so I thought I would see if there was a kid from Kenya (My friend Amy just came back from Kenya). Well the last one was from Kenya so I grab it. As soon as I did the tugging got worse. At first I thought God I would love to do this. I would love to sponsor a child. Well then I looked at the birthday. Now I don't believe in coincidences I believe things happen for a reason and God made them happen that way. Well I felt God tugging so I asked Lee to hold it and I went and called my Dad. Dad picked up and I say “Hey Dad I need to talk to you about something serious.” Dad replied “Did you wreck the car?” ok so I thought this was funny because if I wreck I would have been crying but anyways I told him no and it was more serious. Then I proceeded to tell him about the night. I asked him what his thought on me sponsoring a kid through World Vision. Let me just add real quick that I have no job nothing I get a some money from my church but that’s IT! I’m thinking to myself God you want me to sponsor but I have no money. Ok back to the story so Dad is at first telling me that he doesn’t know but by the end he’s like Sierra do it. There was a feel of relief. Then he said something I will never forget he said, “Sierra, do it God has provided for you so far a he will continue to provide for you.” Then it hit me. When I came to BCF my motto was Philippians 4:13 “I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” And Philippians 4:19 “And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” This semester I have been stressed and depressed and it’s all because I forgot that. I have been worrying how I was going to do this. I allowed the devil to bring me down. I forgot that my God, my father was bigger than my problem and that he carries me through life. Through this I think he’s telling me lean on me, trust me, and let me help you. Well I am totally doing that now. I can’t be the beast. I’m human and I need a savior!! And thanks to Jesus I have one! I want to tell everyone who has talked with me these past weeks Lydia, Heather, Courtney, Nikki, Sarah, Jen, Andrea, and anyone else. Thanks for giving me advice and the strength too stay strong. I love you guys!!

Well I’m going to go for now and btw please continue to pray for me. Also pray for the little girl I’m sponsoring her name is Mary Njeri Thank you!!